This book was written in response to a request given to me during a sexual abuse healing study. The request was to describe my sexual abuse experience. At that time, I could only remember my uncle and me sitting on a couch with a blanket. No faces, nothing but that aweful picture. I have since remembered other instances of abuse and abusers. The abuse set me on a course in life that no child should have to take. From the depths of my soul came the story you are about to read. It describes my experience and how sexual abuse overshadowed my entire life and made me feel powerless to do anything about it. Jesus, in His amazing love and endless grace has healed and restored me. I lost my childhood at the tender age of two. Isn't that but a baby? A baby who deserves only love, pure love, but instead had adult feelings and situations thrust upon me. I processed the abuse in unhealthy ways, and for the next thirty-eight years of my life would search for the real me, the Pauly before the abuse.